I waited too long, and now it's gone...


One of my hard-drives was completely wiped out the other day, which contained most of my personal stuff. Among the small percentage that had real significant value to me were a few of my important writings. Writing is my passion, and therefore, my writing is very important to me. Unlike the other files on my laptop that can be easily replaced, the exact words that formed from my consciousness in those moments in time are more difficult to replicate and piece back together again. Writing is a process... It's an evolution. It's always changing, because your thoughts and ideas are always changing -- You, yourself, are always changing and evolving. Writing captures a moment in time, who you are/were at that moment, in all of your essence.

Writing is my passion, because I'm a thinker. There are people in the world who are thinkers, feelers, or doers. If there is one type of person that I am, it would be a thinker. The secondary type of person I would be is a feeler. Because I often think and feel intensely, writing is an outlet that allows me to harness all these passionate thoughts and emotions inside of me into a constructive, creative form. Nothing has felt more natural and more intuitive to me than writing. It's become who I am, because when I write, I write with purpose. I write with all of my thoughts, ideas, beliefs, values, opinions, heart, and soul.... I write with all of me -- the deepest, rawest parts of me. The very parts of me that I protect vehemently because of how bare and vulnerable they can be. And, when inspiration hits me, all of these things flow out of me with lightening strength. It unleashes itself in all its power and glory. And, there's no holding back. I can't hold it back. Can't stop; Won't stop.

The writings that I lost were kept locked away on my laptop, waiting to see the light of day.
However, they didn't make it out alive. ... And, that is very unfortunate, because I had so much I wanted to share. My writing shouldn't be kept away. Like any other moment in life, it should be shared with the rest of the world.

These potently passionate parts of ourselves --
the very essence of what makes us who we are as individuals --
should be shared and shown to the rest of the world.

It should be unleashed and fostered to grow...
to expand...
in the light,
and in its deserved right and freedom,
to shine...

For moments of passion, or anything else in life for that matter -- Don't hold back or let it wait for another day.

Don't wait too long...
... because, before you know it,
it may be gone...

¡ɟʇʍ 'ʇ¡ɥs pɹıǝʍ ɟo 11nɟ ʇsnظ sɐʍ ʎɐpoʇ 'ʍoʍ

My "extraordinary epiphany" will have to wait to be written out in its entirety at a later time. I will try my hardest to fully articulate my thought process and ideas. Most of these concepts are ones you may already know. But hopefully, I can provide a different perspective to commonsensical themes and reach you on a deeper level that provokes your cognitive (and emotional) senses. Maybe you'll see things from a different view and think about your own life with renewed pro-active attitude.

In the meantime, I will leave you with one of my favorite YouTube videos. I found and posted this on Xanga almost 3 years ago, but it still touches and inspires me till this very day...








"In order to know what you want,
you have to figure out everything that you don't want,
and then and only then
are you left with what you need."


**Something to keep in mind**: What you want is not necessarily what you need. And, what you need is not always what you want. It's important to distinguish between these two, and to be completely honest with yourself. If what you want and what you need are the same thing, then great!

His views and beliefs are totally in-sync with my own view and beliefs about life. I've applied his advice to my life (especially the "cut-off syndrome"), and so far, it's made quite a difference. I really believe in surrounding yourself with good, positive people, and I don't really have a problem prioritizing and cutting negativity out of my life. I don't need to waste my time or energy on insignificant things, and I always try to stay conscious and aware of these things.

I hope you enjoyed it as much as I did. And, maybe his advice will change your life like it has changed mine.

Woot! Finally, finally got my TRUE membership status today after many months of waiting for a response and years of blogging since 2003. Thanks Xanga Team for jumping on that. What unexpected "luck" on 09-09-09!


This long-overdue post is a continuation from my previous post entitled “Reason for Being M.I.A. // Part I”.


Here are some of my reasons for being M.I.A. // Part II





Can you spot me in the crowd?

 

Yep, that would be me in the decorated grad cap.
Gotta stand out from the crowd and get spotted!



 

Me: Half-smiling, half-frowning.





 Me & my mommy!

Mom and Dad with the Grad. 

 
Me & my friends!



  

Me & one of my best friends, Kat!

 



  Me & the Fam.




 
On our way to Granville Island in BC!


 
 

Outside Granville Island Public Market, docks and outside dining



 

Me & my friends!



 

Brunch @ the Granville Island Public Market
(Similar, smaller version of Seattle’s Pike Place Market)



 

Granville Island Brewery




 
On the docks of Granville Island!



 



 


 

I’m on a boat.



 

Boat ride from Granville Island to Yaletown



 

Yaletown Docks

 

Me & Aleem!



 

Yaletown!



 

Aleem, me & Vuong!



 




 

Taking a picture of my friend Vu taking a picture of us.





 Going back on the boat for another boat ride





 @ Moxie’s // Dinner





 @ Moxie’s // Dessert



Enjoy!

After all this time, I finally graduated! It's been a long road, but I finally made it. And, that's all that matters.

If I ever have another bad day, I should remember what I wrote and focus on the positive aspects of life and forget about the negative. I apologize for my unusual writing this late in the night or early in the morning. These past two days have been ... unusually emotionally draining for me.

I wrote the following Facebook Note earlier today (or yesterday by now). My cousin Julie thought it was corny. Maybe you will, too. Either way, it doesn't matter. Because, these were my real thoughts. And, when I write, I write from my heart and I mean it. So if you think so, then deem me corny. I'm too idealistic for my own good anyway.


Hopefully, you are able to take some of my words and apply it to your own life as well. There were plenty more I could add, but that would be a mile long post. Maybe I'll post another in the future when we all need a little reminder that life is about the bigger picture, and not the little details.